execution

Execution
One of the saddest scenes of the book is when Marji heard that his uncle Anoosh executed as a Russian spy .This news touched the heart of Marjan severely. She loved uncle Anoosh .She always had a dream of equality and justice for all the people and suffered that their maid eat lunch separately. She could feel class distinctions in the society and suffers that people are treated unfairly and not only are not given their rights, but also  are killed because of their demands for their rights. She is seeking for a powerful hero to efface this injustice   from the society. During revolution she thinks that the only one who can help her to reach her desires is God. Before the death of Anoosh, probably she had never had such a horrible moment like this, especially that uncle Anoosh was one of the heroes in her mind. Now they executed him. Before that sad event , she believed in God as the symbol of justice and equality who supports the oppressed. Now she finds that God did nothing to prevent these criminal actions. On the other hand she thinks that this regime is a representative of God. All of her images about God came to nought. She is really angry and frustrated, so when God comes to her and asks her what has happened, she yelled at God and says "shut up, you get out of my life!!! I never want to see you again" ( 70). Now she needs to replace someone else instead of God. The best choose is Marx. Especially that uncle anoosh and her grandfather had been following his ideology.
I have a lot of horrible memories during the time that Iran was  in an atmosphere of  terror with a huge number of executions. Any time that I remember these memory, I get a horrible palpitations. It was about one or two years after war. At that time the chief Justice of Iran  was a theologian , named khalkhali, chosen by Ayatollah Khomeini ,The leader of the revolution. "Khalkhali later investigated and ordered the execution of many activists for federalism in Kurdistan"(a province of Iran), "At the height of its activity Khalkhali's revolutionary court sentenced to death "up to 60 Kurds a day". (Ayatollah Sadegh Khalkhali, The Daily Telegraph 28 November 2003)
At that time there were many protest groups and parties who criticized the government and tried to  warn people about all of wrong actions of the government. To prevent the people from revolting against the government Khalkhali ordered the execution of many activists. They had legislated a law that everyone who revolt against the government during the war, is an enemy of God ,and every opposition against government is exactly the same as  warring against God, and should be executed. So he ordered to inspect all the houses and cars and people who were suspected of having banned books, manifestos, printing machine, and so on ....The people had no security in their own place. During and After the Islamic revelation, the most people who were involved the revolution were interested to know about different ideologies and different political views. So they had all kind of books, magazines and etc in their home.  Now they had to hide them from the Basijies(religious police). Some people who had big town house burned all of their banned books and another items. Some times Basijies(police) could find revolutionary by the smoke of the fire, and arrested them. Some people took their books and printing machines out of their home and hide them out of town, but it was not easy because the basijies were everywhere on the roads to inspect the them. If they were arrested, they rarely could be rescued from the dead penalty punishment. I remember that in our neighborhood a child of a family was burned in the fire while they were trying to burn their printing machine. Many sources believe that Khalkhali had sentenced 8.000 men and women to dead penalty

My mother never...

My mother never...

 My mother never compared me with anybody else. She never talked about the words " better" ,"worse", "good" or "bad". She always asked me to be myself without comparing with others. She always emphasized the importance of being myself. She told me that there is a great power in accepting yourself , and when you accept yourself exactly as you are, you would release all of your potential which is needed to be grown, and then you can do everything that you want. She advised me that never try to be someone else, just because you think someone else is better than you. all people are equal. no one is better than another. this idea that you should be better than the others has been generated by our society just because they want make us to forget that we are all one nature. maybe you think that my mother is an educated person. on the contrary she is not educated. she didn't even graduate in her high school . I think this is the key that her natural mind has not been manipulated by educational  system.
 Now after many years of my childhood I can consider all of the truths that my  mom has thought me .I see people pretend that they like each other ,but this is just a show. all of them want to be better than others, so they cannot like those who have left them behind. People cannot love and hate at the same time ,and this awful competing life desires to hate if we want to win. we are always struggling to win, but on the  other hand we need to love because of our nature. these two desires are inconsistent with  each other. so we always carry a contradiction in our life.

I am

I am Zohreh Shojaee. I was born in Iran.I have been here in US for 3 years. My most important goal is to know who i am,and why i am here (on Earth), and who I want to be. Until a few months ago I thought that i have to be someone that society wants me to be based on it's own values.The values that each society imposes us and says that you are a good person if you have this  kind of character, wear in a particular way, learn the only subjects that can brings money and so on. So in every society i have to change my character hobbies,life style,the way of wearing clothes and so on.I love to learn something while I have to learn something else (which I'm not interested in) but  I learn it just because I need to make money to live.Now I have found that  there are a lot of spiritual needs that we have never spent any time to think about it.